I grew up in a Christian home, so I was your typical pious Christian kid who was keen to attend and serve in church. I tried to take my faith more seriously when I started attending high school CF where I was starting to be more independent of my decisions and not just following my family to church. I grew up in a Charismatic church. So this church shaped the kind of Christianity I had in the past, where I was taught that faith is just mere believism and doesn't necessarily have to translate to works that build up the church but as long as we feel the Spirit through tongues or long prayers, long praise and worship sessions in the dark, we have enough Spiritual motivation to get us through the week. One key thing that I wrestled with that helped me understand the gospel even more was the doctrine of predestination. Initially, I disagreed with it because I couldn’t comprehend that God would save some and leave others to hell, as though everyone is deserving of the chance to choose to believe in the gospel. But thank God for the teachings in CERC, I understood what sin truly is which was key for understanding the gospel, that we are not deserving of anything from God but we all deserve hell and it’s a miracle that he even wants to save any of us. I just recalled saying to Van, “I was just randomly thinking.. If it was up to us to decide to follow God, it wouldn’t make sense cause we wouldn’t even want it”. CERC has taught me to be Christian in my thinking and to not stay in my own bubble to do what’s comfortable for me but to do what it takes to be the church God calls us to be. Without CERC, I would very much follow what culture says while still being pious. An example is I was considering that I intended to quit my current job recently because of frustration that i'm not up to par. The old Sarah would just think of myself to go get an easier job and just be comfortable with no concern for long term growth, and to “love myself” rather than letting a job oppress me. But considering all things, I know my time to be molded as a son of God isn’t over yet in this job role. Why CERC? They are not a people who just have clear doctrines, faithful teaching on the pulpit or even in small groups, but the lives lived out of the people are not truly transformed, keeping the gospel as intellectual while having their cake and eating it same time, living as no different from the world. Hence the people here are concerned for God’s glory themselves and has kept me accountable in taking the gospel seriously, which is seen in pushing each other to be consistent with what we are being taught or what we speak to each other, all flowing from the faithful preaching we hear on Sundays by the trained word ministers.