It was during college where I was truly challenged as a Christian, I started having difficult questions like: If God is loving and accepting to all, why is there hell? Why is there sin? If God is in control, would there still be accidents? Disasters? Not only that, I was suffering workplace abuse during my internship and could not go to church which in turn I was left alone from my church I was at my lowest, and it was then I thought God has given up on me, and I was going to give up on Him. Then at the time my university’s (Taylor’s!) CF president, Jou Ee, came and talked to me both to rebuke and encourage me to continue to be Christian, and since then I slowly get back on track in serving the CF. Just when I thought camp was over and I’m ready to get back to my life, I was approached by Charlotte Liew who, through countless messages and calls, pestered me to join TGG, Geddit, and eventually Sunday church. Granted I started going to CERC because of my Taylor’s friends, I soon find out I was having all my questions answered, and not by personal assumptions or interpretations, but being taught to see it for myself. With that as well being challenged to be of service to God, like being a member, serving in ministries etc. Now as a Christian I am clearer of how my life should be. Which is simply in every aspect, every second, to live in worship to God, that would mean to defend the gospel, standing up for it when I talk to friends or relatives, service to His church, in serving my brother and sisters in Christ and outdoing them in showing honour & love, and to persevere in many trials, even when my job is on the line, even when I lost almost 90% of my Taylorian friends, even when I have to be hated by my own mother for a time being.  Since coming to CERC I have been humbled many times, as I am quite a stubborn prideful idiot before. I wasn’t the easiest person to love and I am blur in many aspects, but through the love of the church I am able to be accountable for my actions as well as growing a heart to be servant hearted. From thinking about myself when I serve the church to being concerned of the church and what she needs. It is going to impact the church in that I would want to love others the same (though it is tough to do so) in order that many more Ernests in the church will learn to kill their pride and serve the church with humility. I want to be a member of this church because I want to repay what CERC has done for me, if it wasn’t for the love and care that this church has given I would not have been as mature as I am now, knowing my place in God’s world and house. I would have also been so stuck in living out my own life, being affected by naval gazing that it would just lead to ultimately giving up and taking my own life.